Rainy Days..

I feel sad when it's raining. There's something with it that really makes me feel so lonely. It's a nice feeling though having a cold weather with your jackets on but still deep within me i feel depressed. It's unexplainable feeling--I just always associate rain with sadness.

Today..the rain fell. I just made a deep sigh and wishing I could be home right away to sleep or watch my long overdue dvds at home that i bought few months ago but i haven't seen until now. It's my off from work today but too bad that I still went to the hotel for my scheduled training. After the training, me and Jadey decided to check for the things we can buy at Greenhills. We ate a heavy snack (well, what else is new when I'm with Jadey?) and hang out at ice monster for dessert and yosi break.

On my way home, the traffic was heavy. I decided to change my cd--i want to hear different songs this time. J surprisingly texted me--"Just checking on you.." Well, atleast that made me smile that he have thought of me because it doesn't normally happens. Maybe because he remembers me from the rain--it's possible!--he knows how sad i can be because I spent a lot of rainy days with him in the past--literally and figuratively. =)

Driving home..here's my song:

Damaged
by TLC

I know I’m kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don’t always say, what’s on my mind
You know that I’ve been hurt, by some guy
But I don’t wanna mess up this time

[bridge]
And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I’m kinda scared
Cos I don’t want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understandIt’s nothing to you

[chorus]
My heart’s at a low I’m so much to manage
I think you should know that
I’ve been damaged I’m falling in love
There’s one disadvantage
I think you should know that I’ve been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I don’t wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you’re all mine
I’m a little paranoid, from what I’ve been through
Don’t know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (and I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I’m kinda scared (but I’m scared with every touch)
Cos I don’t want to lose you (cos I don’t want to lose you)
If you really really really care (if you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It’s nothing to you (it’s nothing to you, you)

**I like this song and probably it will play repetitively over my mp3 for the next more days.

Now I am trying to enjoy the sound of the rain drops that makes me feel relaxed this time. It's just another day..just another rainy day..now I guess I will end up just hugging my pillow lonely tonight--not that bad though. I survived the day..Thank you J for putting a smile on my face! =)