The One Who Got Away

Wish number 8 granted!

I woke up early today to hear mass for my birthday thanksgiving. As I reached my phone I already received 14 new messages at 5:00 am! Cool! Well, all messages are from the people I care about wishing me well for this day. I feel loved--thanks! Most of the messages are from the people I rarely bond this days anymore.

Normal working day for me--yes, I am working on my birthday due to an emergency request of my colleague to swith our off for the week--it's fine because I'll be taking her Sunday off which means I will have this day again to bond with mum.

On my way to work I got a message from J. After three years of being separated from him, never in any special ocassions that he remembered to greet me. I understand that maybe he just really moved on..I know this for a fact! Well, I always see the people that has connections with him in all places--even at Puerto Galera I saw one friend of his but never that I bumped to J again after the sad break up years ago. Really becoming a small world for us plus the fact that we are now both under the same hotel management--its just that different chain.
J never accepted all the invitations from me in the past 3 years--not even an invitation from my family! It was understandable on our part though. Finally we decided to meet up after work! This is really a happy birthday for me since I just wrote in my wish list the other day a time to bond with him again for old time sake.

After work I drove to The Fort where we decided to meet. We had dinner and it took us hours to finish our food trying to catch up with each others story. Honestly, I never felt any tension the time I was still about to meet him--I am normal! From afar I saw him standing, still the same good looking guy who dresses very well.

He still looks the same I should say considering its been 3 years had passed. I feel like we were just together yesterday because we are still cool. I never intended to make this a romantic night for both of us since I knew he is already committed with someone else--or even if not! I wanted this to be like just a meeting with a long lost friend.

Then he started to bring up the story of our past little by little. I don't feel uncomfortable to discuss it anyway since its been years had passed and I am sure we both had moved on already. Few things that I don't remember clearly and few that I didn't know he did just to save our relationship. J was one of the best relationship I had in my life. I don't have plenty though but he is the top list aside from B. While I was just looking at him while he shares his stories, I made a deep sigh and told myself that If I can only bring back the past. Well, this is just one thought of an insane Karen. All things happened for a reason. If maybe I didn't broke up with him putting myself into prison for years--I wouldn't have the best of July with B.

Some of his views had changed..it made me smile hearing that his plans before when we are still together was never anymore a plan for the present girl--I know they built their different dreams already which with no hypocrasy--I am happy to see J looking great. It was just heartwarming to know that he remembers all up to the simpliest details of me plus the dates and moments we have shared for years. We were just laughing remembering all but we argued at some point when I shared my side in some particular moment of our relationship.

I still care for J but no attraction involved--he still likable but I know he is already someone who got away. The present GF is surely lucky to have him just like Me when it was my time. I guess it's just true that some good things never lasts.