Saturday Madness

Today was really a stressful day for me at work. Not because of the work that I am doing but because of the people I am working with. I am adjusting and it was not as easy as I thought it will be. I am still fitting in and I know i will be doing a lot of hard work—not to please them but to make them treat me right. I just realized in this world that people tries to gain respect in two ways. First is by being humble and friendly. Second by intimidating that results fear which unfortunately, out of 10 people—8 choses to intimidate! Now I maybe have no choice but to humble myself down and accept everything as it is but of course I will not allow anyone to pin me down and make me look like dumb—not even my boss! Hehehe..

After work, I called Mum and I can’t help not to be in tears. Mum again reminded how smart and tough I am—maybe it’s because she’s my mother who believes only in the good qualities I have but it does helps me smile and love the world again. I just started thinking of happy thoughts and it does helps a lot as well. As I remember my trainor Sir Manny, everyone needs to separate themselves from work.

Happy thoughts..happy thoughts! Then I remembered I will be seeing my good friend Luigi today. I am planning to drive him around but I haven’t decide yet where to go. I thought of bringing him at the bay area and eat at the bay walk (which suggested by my colleague from work) where they serve sea foods that definitely Luigi likes. I also plan to go to Fort Santiago after—wherever he can taste the Filipino culture because he is an Italian. Unfortunately, there will be a big party happening at the bay walk in the evening—luvalooza (I’m not sure with the spelling) which became a custom already that every Valentine’s Day, lovers will go there and kiss with the rest of the thousand couples—well, we are not a couple so it’s not our event! Anyway, since the traffic is bad going to Manila, I decided to take him to Tagaytay so he can see the Taal Volcano instead. With no luck, the traffic is also slow moving heading south so we reached Tagaytay at dark. Sadly, he never had a chance to see the breathtaking Taal. We had dinner at this new authentic Filipino restaurant (which I forgot the name—sorry!) with the view and feel of the cold wind. Good thing I was equipped with my jacket!

It was proven that I never run out of stories so it’s normal for me to eat and talk at the same time but definitely with manners of not talking when my mouth is full. It’s interesting to really know one especially when he came from a different culture. Luigi is like an older brother to me. He speaks well when we talk about life in general but he is a little bit shy because he is conscious with his English even if I always tell him that he communicates fair enough. I met Luigi a year ago and became friends since then and now I consider him to be one of my real good friends aside from being his little sister (He is also a good friend of my Italian ex-bf—just to share). Things between me and Beppe may did not end well, I am happy enough to have gained good friends like Luigi and Valter. Even if they live far, they never forget to check on me once in awhile.

I can share anything with Luigi. Maybe because he is mature enough to listen and give advices but I guess on top of it all, I have felt that he is really someone I can trust not to judge me badly. He might be reading this entry and I am sure he is blushing at this moment! Tonight I decided to finally break my silence about Beppe. After the talk I felt relieved because I know finally that I am in the process of enjoying my success of moving on. Although part of me knows that Beppe will always remain in my heart. Love never dies but I realized it gets tired. This statement might change in the future but only love can do that and that will be another entry to share here I guess.

Ciao!