Ready For Love

I really don’t know how to share the emotions I am feeling right now—but for sure I am happy. “Don’t search for love, let love search for you.” Again I am making true to this line.

Last night I tried to get back to some memories I had with someone who once the special person in my life. I was scared to do this before because I thought it’s not good for me when I am just learning the art of letting go.

For my heart check, I finally decided to run through again to his memories. I opened the emails and read it all over again. I wish I could feel hatred but I didn’t. My friend once asked if it is really easier for me to move on since we've been always apart living thousand miles away—maybe yes but how can you just forget someone who made all the time spent together wonderful?

I smile as I read the lines when he calls me “Baby, Angel, or Sweetie”. I know this has been overly used by couples or sounds cheesy but still it reminds me how happy we were once. I remembered he teased me for having 1:00 p.m. annoying period. He is someone who once cried with me, who wore my sleeping clothes, who trusted me to shave his head, who corrected the way I tied my rubber shoes, and someone I enjoy doing his laundry again and again.

Now it’s time to close this part of my life and continue my success in moving on.

Why not get back with this love?

Let me share about what my special stranger said, “No matter how we control our lives, the past is wasted.” I guess everything explains why I should not get back. I didn’t waste our past for sure--I just can’t control someone’s heart.

Fool me once, shame on you! Fool me twice..shame on me!

Peace!